i feel neglected when you invite me along to a gathering, insist that i come along, get upset if i don't, only to leave me for dust upon arrival. i need you to remember i'm there or let me choose to not come. [by choose i mean accept i'm not coming and don't argue the reasons i should come, and don't try to badger me into coming]
there's a fair bit of push and shove that goes on at this point. him defending his actions. me trying to reason my view. it goes back and forth for a while.
there is either an impasse or a sorry that comes afterward and a promise not to do it next time. at which stage i start insisting on not having [being forced] to attend the events [they're clearly not for or about me - my enjoyment is not relevant]. at which stage he'll accuse me of not trying to mingle and i'm like, yeah i know, i don't like mingling / being left on my own. you want me there .. do more with me. blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda
each time i insist on not going, though maybe once a year i get swayed into going, only to groundhog day the whole thing over and over again. wondering why i haven't kicked myself in the head yet. wondering why he can't accept this is what happens and accept that i don't enjoy myself and don't want to do it.
why why why .. delilah ???
it's exasperating. how do you reason with someone like that?
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