they say the person i know who is missing would never do that
they don't know
you don't know
i don't know
i come across to those who know me as planning out a future for myself, i've got and make plans
there's no way i'll do myself in.
i'm going places
but
when i get intoxicated
drunk and other stuff
i can
get really down, reaching the darkest corners of my mind
i thought life would be like, i thought i'd be, i thought i'd like it more, be happier, surrounded by loved ones, gatherings, dancing, singing, laughing, be something, amount to something
and it's/i'm not
when sober i suffer this, so what, that's life (as cousins said)
i go it, i get by
but
sometimes i image wandering into the wilderness never to be seen again
and it won't matter
it is what it is
you don't know me
know my darkest thoughts
